Into The Woods

Songs for getting lost in nature and looking deep within yourself.

Into the Woods from hannanbatarfie on 8tracks Radio.

Don't let perfection become procrastination!

I have really high expectations of myself, which is often self-defeating because it makes me fear failure so much that I don’t even try. These kinds of thoughts stop me from doing things that I really want to do, and they give me more ammunition with which to beat myself up. Maybe my high expectations come from desperately wanting everything to be perfect.

I remember this quote that says “Don't let perfection become procrastination”, the quote is so spot on! I mean.. I’m the kind a person who procrastinate everything until the last minute, but I’m done with that. I’m done with the anxiety, stress and not getting the stuff done. Now, I keep reminding myself that I have to start somewhere, that doing something is better than nothing at all. Start small so you don’t get discouraged and give up. It’s all about consistency. Remember in the end the turtle won the race, slow and steady, dedication and tenacity.

dear me, dear 40 year old me

Yesterday I wrote my future self an email. It started with "dear 40 year old Hannan" and ended with "I am proud of you in advance. love, H"

My hope is that when future me receives this email sent by present me, she is happy. that is really all. Whatever that means-- rich, poor, famous, forgotten, success or not, I just hope she's happy. in the email I talked about her obnoxious laugh, how it's really too loud for most people, and how I hope she still has it. I hope that if nothing else, I go down as the girl who laughed a little too loudly for other people's comfort. I am not here to make things comfortable. I am here to make things better. there is a difference. I hope I am doing the latter. I could always be doing more. but I think I am doing a pretty good job.

It's such a struggle, to stay here, with present me, to not fall for future me and all that she has finally figured out. but under the strain of learning, I hope my face scrunched up would appear as a smile to a passerby. I am trying to find the joy in the toiling. sometimes I even manage to forget how difficult that can be.