At university, something happens pretty much every day. I am glad.
But it usually takes just 24 hours for it to lose its importance because
something else has happened. University is permanent distraction.
I sometimes miss spending entire days in my head, having the space
to think about nothing—and therefore everything. I try in vain to get back to
that zone whenever I’m sitting outside by myself. I used to enjoy the sounds of
Commute line trains going past every few minutes and the children at playtime
in the kindergarten next to my campus building, but now I don’t even notice
them—they’re just noise.
I’ve been a part of college student for 2 years, and now my lives are so intimately entangled. By far the
most complicated thing to manage is everyone’s romantic lives. It all feels
very futile and confusing, but maybe living like this is a kind of jump-start
on life. Things begin and end very quickly and we doubt there will be happy
endings all around.
